Desy Safan-Gerard

Music to Painting: My Encounters with Pierre Boulez

I was only 19 years old when I first met Pierre Boulez. I was singing in the choir of the University of Chile, the country where I was born. He was a fledging conductor who was the music director in the famous theatrical company of Jean-Louis Barrault and Madeleine Renaud (the same Barrault of fame who played many years later the role of the mime in the French classic film, Les enfants du Paradis).

During his visit to Chile, Pierre Boulez needed a choir for the music in the play being performed by Barrault and Renaud, “Cristobal Colon” written by Paul Claudel, with music composed by Darius Milhaud. I was lucky to be selected as one of the sixteen musicians from our choir to perform during the play, under the baton of Pierre Boulez.


Teatro Municipal de Santiago

We were singing in the pit of the Teatro Municipal de Santiago, and it was a revealing experience for a young girl like me. I was impressed by Boulez directing us and recognized instantly his immense talent and creative streak.

I had the good fortune to meet him many years later, after I had moved and settled in Los Angeles. I told him I had sung for him in Chile, to which he replied that the time he had spent there had been the happiest in his life. I added that it was also one of the happiest times in my own life, particularly when at night, after the rehearsals, a large group of actors, musicians and choirists would go to get coffee together. I would return home very late, finding my parents upset at my bohemian life style.

Sometime in 1984, Boulez was in Los Angeles and I attended a lecture on creativity that he gave. I asked him permission to “paint” his nine movements of Le marteau sans maître. With his French logic, he responded that, since René Char had given him permission to write music to his poem and to even use the poem title for his composition, he was now delighted to give me a similar permission to translate his music into my paintings.

My attempt to do a visual translation of Boulez’s Le marteau sans maître had to do with my wish to really comprehend this piece of music. I was fascinated with the complexity and beauty of the movements. In order to do paintings based on Le marteau, I would have to listen to them many times and get to understand each movement from the inside out. It was as if I wanted to get into Boulez’s mind to relive his creative process along with him. This particular intimacy called for small format work, so I used watercolor, micropens and pencils on paper measuring eighteen by fourteen inches. In addition, and perhaps more importantly, these paintings represented my wish to forget my own subjective moods to pursue an objective depiction of Boulez’s sounds.


The golden yellow of Palisades Park, Santa Monica

I began by taking walks in the Palisades Park in Santa Monica while listening to the nine movements, spending a lot of time with each one. I would then go back to my studio and listen to them again, taking notes with color pencils. The overall colors of these paintings were the result of my subjective experience of each movement. For example, in three of the paintings I used a golden yellow for the background, in four I used a soft green for the background and in the last two I used a soft magenta. In all of them, the color was uneven, leaving enough visual elements to encourage me to play and invent new shapes. These areas without color or small areas of different and subtle pastel colors were meant to represent the irregularities of the sound events and help in the overall design of the movement. In all nine I painted a one-inch border using the same color in a deeper shade in order to create a subtle inside frame. The reason for this is that I already knew I wanted to portray the freedom of Boulez’s music by having the events within the frame extending outward and going over that inside frame. This was to be the most important feature of each painting.

As far as what went into the framed areas, I tried to find the visual equivalent of each sound. It was clear to me that the flute would be represented by a thin silver line moving irregularly up and down on the paper (following the music). A bassoon was represented by a thick line with a burgundy color that moved rather slowly. A thicker gold line represented the movements of the viola and cello. In paintings eight and nine, a thicker burgundy line represented the female alto voice featured in those movements.

Boulez tends to use many percussion instruments and Le marteau was no exception. I attempted to represent the reverberation of the percussion instruments with concentric circles drawn with pencil from a point in the center of the sound. The complexity of sounds was represented by having different lines crossing and coming together in various areas of the paper. The accidental happenings on the paper helped guide the intersecting lines. In spite of my desire to be loyal to Boulez, I felt tremendous freedom to invent the visual elements as needed.

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Maestro: Pierre Boulez conducting

Several years later, Pierre Boulez (now a well-known conductor and composer) was in Los Angeles conducting Bruckner’s ninth. I visited him during rehearsal, hoping he could come to my studio to see the finished paintings. He could not find the time for it, but requested that I bring them to him after one of his rehearsals. I did lugging two large suitcases. I lined up the nine paintings against the wall, and to my surprise and delight, he pointed to one of them saying, “That’s my number four”, and to another, “That’s my number six” and so on until he identified each of my paintings with the exact movement of the music I had reproduced. I was blown over that he could respond so accurately to the structure of my paintings. All my efforts to translate his music had been worth it because Boulez had accepted and validated my work!

I treasure these paintings so much that I have been reluctant to sell any of the series. They are a memento of one of my most precious musical and visual experiences, and I would only let them go if Pierre Boulez would want them for IRCAM (L’Institut de recherche et coordination acoustique/musique), which he created.

I have continued to be inspired by Boulez’s music. In 2012, I did a performance at the Galerie Dufay/Bonnet in Paris where I painted with both hands while a nude model moved to Boulez’s Notations. I was sad that he could not come to this performance because he was in Chicago having eye surgery.

Desy Safán-Gerard
April 2015
Venice, California

desy_image3- early work

Desy Safán-Gerard was born in Chile where she studied musical composition with Leon Shidlovsky and Gustavo Becerra. She is a painter as well as a training and supervising analyst at the Psychoanalytic Center of California in Los Angeles. Desy graduated in psychology from the University of Chile, Santiago, won a Fulbright scholarship to the Psychology Department at the University of California, Berkeley, and earned a PhD in clinical psychology from UCLA in 1974.

Ever since she began to paint in 1971 she has led a dual life. As a psychoanalyst she has been carrying out her clinical work, written several important papers on creativity, and taught psychoanalytic courses. As a painter she translates music into the visual realm, and creates paintings based on the music of Boulez, Shostakovich, Piazzola, Brockman, and Kraft. Her “Boulez Series” of nine paintings, ‘Le Marteau Sans Maître’, was displayed in the “Music to the Eye” exhibit at LA Artcore in 2003.


Desy Safán-Gerard: Boulez Series

Figure 3.35 Boulez 1

Figure 3.36 Boulez 2

Figure 3.37 Boulez 3

Figure 3.38 Boulez 4

Figure 3.39 Boulez 5

Figure 3.40 Boulez 6

Figure 3.41 Boulez 7

Figure 3.42 Boulez 8

Figure 3.43 Boulez 9

Read “A Letter to Pierre Boulez” from Desy’s forthcoming book on creativity, Psychoanalytic Visions: From Chaos to Control to the Unfolding of a Creative Mind >>

Painting Boulez: Desy paints with both hands while a nude model moves to Notations by Pierre Boulez at Atelier Arts Médium, Paris, France, 16 June 2012

3 thoughts on “Desy Safan-Gerard

  1. Dear Desy,
    What a fabulous gift from you to receive this wonderful essay and photos of your gorgeous paintings. You, also, are absolutely gorgeous and glamorous in the photo of you with some of the paintings. I treasure the gift of the painting you gave me after your exhibit in Chelsea, and I am so thrilled to have been among your friends and to visit with you, Henri, and your family and close friends at your wonderful dinner party.
    My warmest wishes to you and to Henri for the best 2016 in the world ever!
    With love,


  2. Desy~
    What a gift you have! So beautiful, with such a deep level of intensity, as it portrays music with the eye. Amazing!

    Love, Mary & Steve Braun


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